my life as a stay at home mom

It may not be for a very long time but for now I'm a stay at home mom. And i LOVE it! Every day is wonderful watching my daughters grow. Ever day is better then the day before. Tim is a wonderful husband and he takes care of us so well. Money is tight and he didn't get a pay check this month due to the arrival of Skyler and him not working to be with us at the hospital. Life may be handing us lemons in the finance dept but my life has never been better in ever other matter. Still stings when Patience goes to her dad's for the weekend but it helps having someone to take care of when she isn't here. she is amazing my Patience. She is so smart too. Just the other day she brought home a spelling test and she made a 100!! just a few months ago she had been making 30-40's. 

We got Pictures made of Skyler when she was a week old. here are the pics..

She is more beautiful then i could have ever wished for. She is my angel!! Well my wonderful husband has went on a ice cream run so I'm gonna get off here before he gets home. 

a very happy girl, Jen

Indroducing Skyler Rai

January 2, 2012 I welcomed into the world the birth of my second daughter Skyler Rai Hubbard. She weighted 7 lbs 3 oz and was 20 inches long. She is the most beautiful lil girl since Patience. :) We where at the hospital for a day and the birth was supper easy. Life has become all about my girls and my wonderful hubby. Today i was able to cook for the first time in months. With the dizziness and problems i had in pregnancy i had not been able to do anything in a long time. Patience hasn't been around much. She has been at her dad's a lot with all the holiday's and his birthday lately. I can't wait to see her tonight and have her home for a few weeks. 

2011

Life as a newly married woman has never been better. Patience is 6 now and growing like a weed. I found out in May that i am Pregnant and in Aug we found out its a girl. I'm due now any day. (Jan 9) but already been having contractions so it won't be long. Tim got a job working as a car salesman and in Nov i lost my job because i couldn't return to work yet. So for now I'm staying at home. We are hoping i can stay home with Skyler Rai (new baby). Patience is so excited that she's gonna be a big sister. She told me just last night that she only wanted the baby for Christmas. :) she has been taking care of me like a Lil momma. Funny thing her dad is also expecting with his new wife. sometime in Feb. So she's gonna have 2 sisters at around the same time. She has never been so excited.

We also had another addition to our family this year. on Nov 21 Holly gave birth to my 2nd niece named Claire Isabella. is was so cute. I haven't seen her since she left the hospital but I'm hoping to soon.

So a lot has changed and still the same. I've never been as happy with my life as i am right now. I have the most loving husband, beautiful daughter, and another beautiful daughter to be here soon. we don't have a lot of money but we make up for it with happiness. after all you can't buy that..

Gonna try to update between now and next year.. :)

New name and New year

I'm happy to anounce my marrage to Tim on Dec 29, 2010. We went to the court house with my parents, Patience, Brother, and Niece. It was simple and very romantic. Didn't know we where doing it until 11 that day. We've been waiting forever and decided why? Why not do it and make it final. We are so happy. Patience is excited too that she has a step dad. Now for a baby. Everyone is waiting for that. I can't wait to grow our family. I changed the blog name since I'm no longer a Alter. Keeping my old email i figure my daughter will want to use it someday. Happy New year!

Jennifer Hubbard

Black Friday

Black Friday? Already? Wow where has this year gone? Seems like yesterday when Tim was moving in with us. But that was March. Before to long it would have been a year. Funny thing is that time really does fly when you are having fun. Things are so good for us right now. Sunny days are finally here. Patience is doing very well in school. My job is going ok. And Tim has a job working at the new movie Theater. Praise God that things are finally looking up for me. I even got the Laptop i was wanting today. Its so great I've been using my old one for years. Now it is passed down to Patience. And she couldn't be happier. She's at her dad's this weekend. I'm glad cause they indeed needed some time together. Hopefully with his work scdule this weekend he'll have some time for her. I'm about ready to pass out. Didn't sleep last night cause i was camped out in the Humboldt Walmart. But hey it was so worth it. Tim's Birthday, My Birthday and Christmas are right around the corner. Hopefully i'll get some sleep between all the stuff on my to do list.. lol goodnite, jen

I trust you'll treat her well

A dear friend gave me this poem a few days ago and i could help but cry. So i thought I'd share with all of you.



Dear World:
I bequeath to you today one little girl... In a crisp dress.. with two blue eyes.. and a happy laugh that ripples all day long.. and a flash of light blonde hair that bounces in the sunlight when she runs. I trust you'll treat her well.

She's slipping out of the backyard of my heart this morning.. and skipping off down the street to her fist day of school. And never again will she completely mine. Prim and proud she'll wave her young and independent hand this morning to say "Good bye".. and walk with little lady steps to the school house.

Now she'll learn to stand in a line.. and wait by the alphabet for her name to be called. She'll learn to tune her ears to the sound of school-bells.. and deadlines.. and she'll learn to giggle.. and gossip.. and look at the ceiling in a disinterested way when the little boy across the aisle sticks out his tongue at her. And now she'll learn to be jealous. And now she'll learn how it is to feel hurt inside. And now she'll learn how not to cry.

No longer will she have time to sit on the front porch steps on a summer day and watch an ant scurry across the crack in the side walk. Nor will she have time to pop out of bed with the dawn to kiss lilac blossoms in the morning dew. No, now she'll worry about important things. Like grades.. and which dress to wear.. and who's best friend is whose. And the magic of books and learning will replace the magic of her blocks and dolls. And now she'll find new heroes.

For five years now I've been her sage and Santa Claus and pal and playmate and Mother and friend. Now she'll learn to share her worship with her teachers.. which is only right.. But, no longer will i be the smartest women in the whole world. Today when that school bell rings for the first time.. she'll learn what it means to be a member of a group. with all its privileges. And it's disadvantages too.

She'll learn in time that proper young ladies do not laugh out loud. Or kiss dogs. Or keep frogs in Pickle jars in the bedrooms. Or even watch ants scurry across cracks in the summer sidewalk.

Today she'll learn for the first time that all who smile at her are not her friends. And I'll stand on the front porch and watch her start out on the long, lonely journey to become a woman.

So, World. I bequeath to you today one little girl.. in a crisp dress.. with two blue eyes and a happy laugh that ripples all day long.. and a flash o flight blonde hair that bounces in the sunlight when she runs. I trust you'll treat her well.



by: Victor Buono

Summer 2010

This has to be the longest summer on record. Being away from my little girl for so long has been the hardest thing I've ever done. I worked a lot trying to keep busy. Tim and I have had a lot of free time alone which has been nice but after too long my longing for my daughter has been a challenge. Watching Tv, Reading, Playing on facebook, Has been what has been keeping me busy. I've read the first 3 books from twilight and i'm on the 4th book now. I even watched the first 2 seasons of true blood and 4 episodes of the 3rd season. But tonight my daughter returns and school is only a week away. Kindergarten. I can't believe my baby is in school. Where did the last 5 years go? To fast. It happened to fast.. Now to the next chapter. Hopefully Tim will have a job soon and we can plain the wedding. Spring hopefully. My favorite time of the year. Patience in a flower girl dress. I can see it now.. It will be beautiful. Well I must go read now. Trying to finish my book and all before she returns. ttfn, jen

Memorial Day

Happy Memorial day everyone! Spent the day hurting from this sunburn but over all it was a good day. Andy, Holly, Ellie, Mom and Dad came over for a while and Ellie played on Patience's new swing set for a while. Patience is still with her dad so was bitter sweet having everyone here. We all miss her so bad when she's not here. Talked to her again tonite she called crying missing us. Said to come get her. I talked to her dad and he said she has been fine until that point. I've told her i'd come get her whenever but it had to be ok with her dad too. He said she's been Charity's little shadow all week and she had gotten in trouble and was in her room. That Patience must had been lonely with out her. Not sure but i just want her to be happy. I'd do anything for that kid. Gonna by her the alice in wonderlant movie tomorrow. She's excide about that. Well I'm tired and hungry so i'm gonna post this and get off this thing. ttyl

Myrtle Beach Pics

Patience

Missing my little girl sucks. I can't believe its been a week since i last saw her beautiful face. She was sleepy and had her little head on my sholder when HE got her. She had a great time last sunday playing in the slip in slide and on her new swing set Tim got her. I love her so much. I long to hear her playing in her room. 5 days to go. I get her on Friday. I can't wait.

new beginnings

so much to write so little time. to start so much is different now. Greg and I are divorced and I'm happer then i've ever been. I meet a wonderful man named Tim and he's changed my life forever. We are engaged and loving like never before. Patience is doing very well. now 5 and graduated Preschool. She's with her dad in Memphis for the summer and i pray that she's having fun. He's a cop now in Memphis and works nights. She stays with his girlfriend at night. She's got 2 daughters and Patience's loves playing with them. Well gotta go check on a big fire we have burning in the back with garbage in it. ttyl Jen

The next Chapter

well so much thus far has happened since my last post. Guess i should begin with I did get the job at Rayovac. I worked there for about 2 months. It was a great job. Great People and Benefits. But it wasn't home. So the first week of Aug we came home to look for Jobs. We went to all the Factories in Jackson. And on a last min trip to Lexington we went to Manpower. And sure enough they had a job for me. At Auto Zone of all places! So they gave me a week to Go back and quit Rayovac and pack up all my stuff. The last week up there went smoothly. Patience helped pack as did Greg. And our friends Becky and John helped a lot too. they where great. I miss them. The plan was to pack up and move down on the Sunday. Not sure if Greg was going to stay a few extra weeks. I rented a small pull uhaul and Got it home alright. Then when we started loading her up. it didn't take long to figure out that we had more stuff than uhaul. So we planned to return in a week or two to get the rest. we had paid rent til the 31 so we figured that it was going to be ok. Dad and mom helped us alot. Uncle Ken let us use a storage unit out back to put all our stuff. We got back to Tn and I started my Job at AZ. I met a lot of great people. Like Emily and Megan. I even met a girl i had went to Elementary school with. And a few that had known Dar and Hob. And of coarse a lot that new Greg from the 6 years or so that he worked there. My start date there was Aug 12. and I quit Yesterday Cause i found a full time Job. But we will come back to that in a min. We went back to Illinois the last time the last week in Aug. went up on a monday afternoon with the largest pull uhaul that they have. packed up that tuesday and drove back that afternoon. but not before one last visit to Lisa's house. We left Amboy around 7:30 pm and due to a driving Road block that took us an hr to go 15 miles. We didn't get to mom and Dad's til after 6 am. We where so wore out. Now we have settled in in our lil house. Things are going well. We have been cooking almost every meal. and Greg has worked so hard outside. the porch and the yard looks incredible. I start a new job on Monday. its a bill collections job and it starts at the same pay i made at Rayovac. I don't know how i will like it but i guess I'll see. Patience is doing so good. She is potty trained now. and tonight is sleeping in under ware for the first time. she loves being home with her grandparents and seeking her cousins. Missy came a few days ago bringing Amber and Bearett. and Andy Brings Ellie over every weekend. So our story has begun a new chapter. hopefully it will all be worth it in the end and those two heartbreaking years in IL will prove to have been worth something in the long run.

for now so long, Jen

I got a JOB!

I'm not sure when i start yet cause I'm waiting on a drug test and background check but i'm hoping to hear back Monday. :) I'm so glad I'll finally have money coming in now! yeahhhhh!!!

Patience 3rd Birthday

I forgot to blog about her birthday. She had a great day! Or friends Becky and John came and brought John's son (tired and can't remember name sry*) Came and we ate cake and she got a cowboy hat which she loves and a bunch of balloons.. which after 2 weeks she is still dragging around the house! Aunt Holly sent up a bunch of toys and a computer thingy for the Internet, Aunt Lisa bought her a bunch of summer clothes, and we added to the money and bought her more clothes and a few clothes plus i made her a cake and bought a ice cream cake from the schawns man. She love all of it. My dad was sad though that he wasn't here. and i think patience missed him and my mom. I do too. we also called Granny and patience talked to her for a while. She sang happy birthday to her. it was so nice. OK well that's all for tonite. Nite, Jen

sleepless in IL

I had the best day babysitting 2 beautiful little girls. one is 2 1/2 and the other is 3 months. Patience did so well. She got Little jealous with the computer Dora game. But over all she did OK. Speaking of that game. She can do all the games all by herself. all the numbers and alphabet!!! I'm so proud of her. Also she went potty all day like the oldest girl Laney. Only having 1 accident!!! even at walmart she asked to go potty! If everything works out I'll be watching the girls 3 days a week! and I'm so happy!

On a sadder note, Susan's Granddad/Sonia's dad died today. I remember him from my childhood. I was always afraid of him. A hard man from a hard life. He died of cancer that had been killing him for 2 years. He just found out what it was cause he refused to see Dr's. I'm sad for Susan. now she hadn't got any grandfathers alive. but i don't either now since my grandad died in Nov 06. Our grandmother is all i have left. God bless her. She's the most wonderful woman! As seen on my main page of my website. I've learned a lot from her.

Mothers day is approaching and I'm so far away from my mom now. we sent down cards and pictures that Patience colored. But it doesn't seem enough. I miss her. We may have had our hard times but i love her. And i know Patience misses them. She is growing up so fast!

I've tired to go to bed but no luck. Patience has been sleeping since about 7:30 which is very unusual for her. you can tell her playing wore her out.

Well i guess I'll try again. to sleep. ah. what am i going to do with myself? why am i still seeking? I pray. What do i want to be when i grow up? what? why can't i answer that simple childhood question? ugh. I'm too tired for it tonight. so farewell. Goodnight. bye.


Jen