sleepless in IL

I had the best day babysitting 2 beautiful little girls. one is 2 1/2 and the other is 3 months. Patience did so well. She got Little jealous with the computer Dora game. But over all she did OK. Speaking of that game. She can do all the games all by herself. all the numbers and alphabet!!! I'm so proud of her. Also she went potty all day like the oldest girl Laney. Only having 1 accident!!! even at walmart she asked to go potty! If everything works out I'll be watching the girls 3 days a week! and I'm so happy!

On a sadder note, Susan's Granddad/Sonia's dad died today. I remember him from my childhood. I was always afraid of him. A hard man from a hard life. He died of cancer that had been killing him for 2 years. He just found out what it was cause he refused to see Dr's. I'm sad for Susan. now she hadn't got any grandfathers alive. but i don't either now since my grandad died in Nov 06. Our grandmother is all i have left. God bless her. She's the most wonderful woman! As seen on my main page of my website. I've learned a lot from her.

Mothers day is approaching and I'm so far away from my mom now. we sent down cards and pictures that Patience colored. But it doesn't seem enough. I miss her. We may have had our hard times but i love her. And i know Patience misses them. She is growing up so fast!

I've tired to go to bed but no luck. Patience has been sleeping since about 7:30 which is very unusual for her. you can tell her playing wore her out.

Well i guess I'll try again. to sleep. ah. what am i going to do with myself? why am i still seeking? I pray. What do i want to be when i grow up? what? why can't i answer that simple childhood question? ugh. I'm too tired for it tonight. so farewell. Goodnight. bye.


Jen