Black Friday

Black Friday? Already? Wow where has this year gone? Seems like yesterday when Tim was moving in with us. But that was March. Before to long it would have been a year. Funny thing is that time really does fly when you are having fun. Things are so good for us right now. Sunny days are finally here. Patience is doing very well in school. My job is going ok. And Tim has a job working at the new movie Theater. Praise God that things are finally looking up for me. I even got the Laptop i was wanting today. Its so great I've been using my old one for years. Now it is passed down to Patience. And she couldn't be happier. She's at her dad's this weekend. I'm glad cause they indeed needed some time together. Hopefully with his work scdule this weekend he'll have some time for her. I'm about ready to pass out. Didn't sleep last night cause i was camped out in the Humboldt Walmart. But hey it was so worth it. Tim's Birthday, My Birthday and Christmas are right around the corner. Hopefully i'll get some sleep between all the stuff on my to do list.. lol goodnite, jen

I trust you'll treat her well

A dear friend gave me this poem a few days ago and i could help but cry. So i thought I'd share with all of you.



Dear World:
I bequeath to you today one little girl... In a crisp dress.. with two blue eyes.. and a happy laugh that ripples all day long.. and a flash of light blonde hair that bounces in the sunlight when she runs. I trust you'll treat her well.

She's slipping out of the backyard of my heart this morning.. and skipping off down the street to her fist day of school. And never again will she completely mine. Prim and proud she'll wave her young and independent hand this morning to say "Good bye".. and walk with little lady steps to the school house.

Now she'll learn to stand in a line.. and wait by the alphabet for her name to be called. She'll learn to tune her ears to the sound of school-bells.. and deadlines.. and she'll learn to giggle.. and gossip.. and look at the ceiling in a disinterested way when the little boy across the aisle sticks out his tongue at her. And now she'll learn to be jealous. And now she'll learn how it is to feel hurt inside. And now she'll learn how not to cry.

No longer will she have time to sit on the front porch steps on a summer day and watch an ant scurry across the crack in the side walk. Nor will she have time to pop out of bed with the dawn to kiss lilac blossoms in the morning dew. No, now she'll worry about important things. Like grades.. and which dress to wear.. and who's best friend is whose. And the magic of books and learning will replace the magic of her blocks and dolls. And now she'll find new heroes.

For five years now I've been her sage and Santa Claus and pal and playmate and Mother and friend. Now she'll learn to share her worship with her teachers.. which is only right.. But, no longer will i be the smartest women in the whole world. Today when that school bell rings for the first time.. she'll learn what it means to be a member of a group. with all its privileges. And it's disadvantages too.

She'll learn in time that proper young ladies do not laugh out loud. Or kiss dogs. Or keep frogs in Pickle jars in the bedrooms. Or even watch ants scurry across cracks in the summer sidewalk.

Today she'll learn for the first time that all who smile at her are not her friends. And I'll stand on the front porch and watch her start out on the long, lonely journey to become a woman.

So, World. I bequeath to you today one little girl.. in a crisp dress.. with two blue eyes and a happy laugh that ripples all day long.. and a flash o flight blonde hair that bounces in the sunlight when she runs. I trust you'll treat her well.



by: Victor Buono

Summer 2010

This has to be the longest summer on record. Being away from my little girl for so long has been the hardest thing I've ever done. I worked a lot trying to keep busy. Tim and I have had a lot of free time alone which has been nice but after too long my longing for my daughter has been a challenge. Watching Tv, Reading, Playing on facebook, Has been what has been keeping me busy. I've read the first 3 books from twilight and i'm on the 4th book now. I even watched the first 2 seasons of true blood and 4 episodes of the 3rd season. But tonight my daughter returns and school is only a week away. Kindergarten. I can't believe my baby is in school. Where did the last 5 years go? To fast. It happened to fast.. Now to the next chapter. Hopefully Tim will have a job soon and we can plain the wedding. Spring hopefully. My favorite time of the year. Patience in a flower girl dress. I can see it now.. It will be beautiful. Well I must go read now. Trying to finish my book and all before she returns. ttfn, jen

Memorial Day

Happy Memorial day everyone! Spent the day hurting from this sunburn but over all it was a good day. Andy, Holly, Ellie, Mom and Dad came over for a while and Ellie played on Patience's new swing set for a while. Patience is still with her dad so was bitter sweet having everyone here. We all miss her so bad when she's not here. Talked to her again tonite she called crying missing us. Said to come get her. I talked to her dad and he said she has been fine until that point. I've told her i'd come get her whenever but it had to be ok with her dad too. He said she's been Charity's little shadow all week and she had gotten in trouble and was in her room. That Patience must had been lonely with out her. Not sure but i just want her to be happy. I'd do anything for that kid. Gonna by her the alice in wonderlant movie tomorrow. She's excide about that. Well I'm tired and hungry so i'm gonna post this and get off this thing. ttyl

Myrtle Beach Pics

Patience

Missing my little girl sucks. I can't believe its been a week since i last saw her beautiful face. She was sleepy and had her little head on my sholder when HE got her. She had a great time last sunday playing in the slip in slide and on her new swing set Tim got her. I love her so much. I long to hear her playing in her room. 5 days to go. I get her on Friday. I can't wait.

new beginnings

so much to write so little time. to start so much is different now. Greg and I are divorced and I'm happer then i've ever been. I meet a wonderful man named Tim and he's changed my life forever. We are engaged and loving like never before. Patience is doing very well. now 5 and graduated Preschool. She's with her dad in Memphis for the summer and i pray that she's having fun. He's a cop now in Memphis and works nights. She stays with his girlfriend at night. She's got 2 daughters and Patience's loves playing with them. Well gotta go check on a big fire we have burning in the back with garbage in it. ttyl Jen